Sunday, December 19, 2010

today was a good day, we finally started bringing Ellina to church as we have gotten so sick this fall and Ellina's handled just fine so although I try and be aware of germs in stores etc I'm not s worried about her catching every bug. So anyway we went to church today, it is something I have to get back into the swing of and I think being there is one of the hardest places for me to go. When we have children and it seems we moms make plans on about everything from the very beginning, one of mine was how to sit in church with 3 babies and a 1 year old and still get something from it. Every time I sit, undisturbed it hits me just one of those dreams shattered. I had some unshed tears at church today. (I really don't cry anymore, still feel like I'm out of real tears). But back to the good part, I keep asking why we are doing Christmas this year, its stressful its drama and why oh why do we have to do holidays?? Today our pastor preached a good sermon about Jesus' birth and then we sang a bunch of Christmas songs and for the first time in this season, I felt it. That feeling of Christmas spirit, I love to sing and I love the story of baby Jesus. It was good for me and not something I plan on forgetting any time soon so merry Christmas everyone and Happy Birthday Jesus!


  1. So glad you were at church today :) It was good talking to you. It's good to be reminded of the "reason for the season". Those kids of yours and just great :) I can't believe how much Ellina has grown! And she is just so happy and sweet! You are doing a great job!

  2. So glad you got a reason for the season! Christmas is a hard time, but I was reminded about how special family is and how we will not always have each other, and how thankful I am to get to spend time together. I don't care about the rest of the stuff!!! ((hugs)) Love you, Shell!

  3. Oh, your daughter is beautiful. I'm SO sorry for your loss.. Our youngest son went to heaven just over two years ago due to a severe congenital heart defect (HLHS). Just in the past year, I again went through a spot of avoiding church...

    This year, it's been a little easier to find Chrsitmas joy but it took two years to get here! I will lift you and your family up in prayer for healing..and peace.