So we are home now and Ellina is doing great, she did really well with the surgery, came out of anesthesia ok it took about 5 hours till she was ok enough h to eat, poor baby she was all out of it but couldn't suck and hadn't eaten since 5 that morning, her surgery was at 9 am. Anyway we see the eye doc on Mon, as far as he could tell it went really well I'm thinking we will know for sure how she did with it when we see him again. It was nice seeing the NICU doctor again, she is the same doctor that had Ellina when we had to go stay in the Kalispell after we left Missoula and Ellina got sick again, she is a great doctor, but she worries so much, last time we were there it was just so hard for me to be back in the hospital after going home. This time it was great we were only there for one night but I could let her know all my worries, Why is she still on oxygen? What if she has brain damage that we don't know about? Anyway we did a chest x-ray and although her lungs look way better there are signs that she will still need a tiny bit of extra oxygen. So I feel much better with that. WE also did a brain ultrasound and it looked very good, I still am going to get a referral to a neurologist and see about getting an MRI to find out if there is something that didn't show up on an ultrasound.
Other then that we are doing pretty good, It was really hard on Cody when I told him that Ellina needed surgery I think we are both sick and tired of worrying about the our survive, I tend to obsess so much more then I did with my other kids.
I still miss my babies like crazy, sometimes nothing seems right, we are getting close to about a year when we found out we were having triplets and although I thought that the chance of them all surviving wasn't that high but at the same time I didn't really believe it, from that point on I planned that next year I would be crazy busy with three babies, my daughter Ellina is so adorable and I just know my girls are in heaven charming everyone up there with their smiles and cooing and talking their own language

So I am sitting here in the hospital waiting for Ellina to get out of surgery, yes its crazy and last minute but... I'll start from the beginning. Last week Ellinas eye doctor's office called me and said that even though he said he wanted her back in six months he realized that he shouldn't wait that long due to the fact that she was just so little when she was born. So they set up an apt for next month. Then this last Monday they called me and asked if there was any way I could come down, I said no is something wrong? no but the doctor would really like to see her asap, maybe Wednesday? I said ok and on Wednesday morning it was snowing like crazy, everyone is staying off the roads so i called and rescheduled, I'm not worried the nurse said everything was fine. Not long later i get a phone call this time from the Doctor, he asked if there is any way I cold brave the roads and come down. Explaining that there was a small undeveloped spot on Ellina's eye that he had thought was no problem, then had been rethinking so he did some research and came to the conclusion that until that resolved she needed to be followed every 4 weeks. And it had been about 4 weeks creeping on 5 weeks, he just didn't want to wait any longer. So i told him I would try and ended up braving the roads the next day, yesterday. the eye exam was pretty normal, except it seemed to take him a little longer, like he needed to take a second and third look at on e spot. When he finished he sat explained that he was ready to go ahead with laser. Mainly the one eye needs it because of the one undeveloped place was still the same and she has PLUS decease here's and definition of plus disease: PLUS disease is a complication of retinopathy of prematurity. In PLUS disease abnormal blood flow to the retina causes the blood vessels on the retina to enlarge and become twisted. PLUS disease is a sign that the ROP is worsening and may require treatment. .... So he decided to treat her and right away so they put her in the NICU (I know just a little old for that but her NICU doctor wanted to see her) last night just to get a baseline on her vitals etc and the had the surgery this morning, which the Doctor just stopped in and said it is done and looks like everything went well. they should let me go in in a few minutes so I have to get going but I hope that explained a little better.

I keep trying to write then get distracted or lost on what to say. I think I'm gonna keep going right now. We are getting super close to a year from when I found out I was pregnant. It crazy how this last year has played out and how my moods go up and down. I find its hard to watch anything super emotional, doesn't matter how fiction it is I still seem to cry allot more during my favorite shows. My husband and I ended up discussing my surgery last time we watched something together, and both ended up in tears, it was so traumatizing for us going through that and being separated. Now whenever we discuss him going anywhere for a period of time we both get kinda freaked out. Well we may have to figure out something because work is scarce around here and income is a must.
Ellina's eye doctor's office called me and he want to see her one more time before passing her to the other doc that sees kids. Ive decided he misses her=) They keep insisting nothings wrong he just read some article and want to be on the safe side with her.
Ellina is still doing ok, I'm a worry wort with her and my newest worry, Why does she still need extra oxygen? She does ok without for a few hours and then all the sudden her sats go down. I think I'm going to be discussing with her doctor about looking into that a little deeper.
She also got her first bad ear infection, poor baby cried for hours until I gave her Tylenol for the night and took her in the next day. She was on antibiotics for 10 days and now that shes done I'm wondering if its coming back. She seems just a little more fussy then normal... And as babies go I think she is already pretty fussy. Its ok, its just making up for the fact that she is my first fussy baby out of 5 kids... Someone said they read that twin less twins, (although Ellina is a tripletless triplet) grieve over their siblings and therefore cry allot more. I wonder sometimes. I love to think when she smiles at the wall that her angel sisters are down visiting with her. I guess I don't care about the theology behind that. Anyway, our lives go on here. I have a birthday party to plan for my Gareth, he's gonna be 4 years old! wow my oldest little on is getting way too big!